June

So I am not going to lie, this year has been hell for me, but June has been really bad and theres only been what 6 days? Anyways, my mom went down to Washington, because my sister Cori had 2 herniated disks in her neck and she was getting surgery. A day after her surgery she was being a total bitch and then was fine yesterday. Then today, my other sister who is helping watch Cori had a heart attack. So of course my mom calls to tell me and my dad and then my mom falls down the fucking stairs. I mean god damn, what is happening to my family. Its like things are falling apart slowly and its killing me.

-Ashley

Starsha && Douscheee'

Six more days and my bestfriend will be here!

and you know what that means... extreme partying.
Because when we're together, things get crazy.

now.

i feel like this week ive realized a lot of things.

1. i should be nice to people because you never know if you'll see them again.
2. maybe seconds chances can be possible (hmm i'm still trying to think this one out)
3. i think ive finally came to a place in my life where i feel that my friends now are the best friends ive ever had. like i cant explain the feeling,but i know my friends now are the right ones. i mean it'll never be perfect friendships, because all friends fight, but these fights don't count, they're fights that are necessary for us to grow... well atleast thats what i think

well that may not be a lot of things that ive figured out, but its really made me feel more certain of things like how my lifes going as of now and how i want it to go in the future.

WTF

Seriously, this weeek keeps getting weirder and weirder.

it's like everything i say keeps becoming true. its the craziest thing ever.

and idk why but lately i've felt weird, like im not myself.
i feeel like i've lost my "trenna " ways or something, if that even makes sense.

hmm idk. maybe its just me not caring about school anymore since its so close to summer.
whatever

a couple more weeks and i should be out of my slump.

Summer will be here. I'll be able to drive. My best friend will be back. and summer will bring endless crazy nights and having fun

:)

Realization

So I've realized that i need to stop saying that i "hate" certain people.



I shouldn't hate anyone. and I've realized that if something were to happen to these people that i say i "hate" i would feel so bad and i would most likely want to take back everything i said about them. So from today on, I'm not hating anyone. I mean i can't force myself to like everybody, but at least i can try to put forth the effort to just be cordial to them.



oh and to add to this goal, it's be almost two weeks since I've drank soda :)

hahaha

- Trenna

Honestly

I find all of my projects a waste of time. We should be taking the time to go over final exams, not wasting paper and other project materials. The only project that I am looking forward to doing is the family tree one.

All of the other projects have been stressing me out. Don't teachers realize that every other teacher gives either the same amount of projects to do or more? Gah I just don't get it sometimes.

If I where a teacher, I would be like Mr. C aka Master C ahaha, he is so cool and his final exam is our project. Hella cool.

Anyways, back to English essay :p
-Ashley

School.

I hate school as of right now.

Well not so much school, but the homework they give us.

Summer needs to hurry up and start already :l

- Trenna

final exams

takes up SOOO much time & causes alot of stress.
but never, is the girls going to break up :)
i declare we three hang out right after we get out of school on June 4th & go to ihop by the ghetto applebees hahah (it's kind of a tradition).

-gloriaaaa;

oh & tell me why the other day i was in the library and i saw Ms. Champeau typing in her blogspot!

Soon enough.

A night like this will happen soon :)


The Girls aren't breaking apart.
We're still the same, we're just busssyy :)

The Girls

For some reason, I feel like the girls are falling apart; or maybe I'm just falling out? I don't know what it is. I just feel disconnected from them. I mean yes I see them during school and what not, but whens the last time it was just us? I miss going to Arbys at 9:00 after seeing a movie and just sitting there talking about stuff until the hairy lady tells us we have to leave. I also miss how the girls would spend the night and stay awake all night. I don't know I guess, I just miss you guys. Or how we would go to parks and just chill and for some reason we always run into people ahha. Or like mall adventures, or even getting lost in the ghetto. Shiz man, I miss the adventures ahahah.

God I'm so gay ahahaha... but its true.


-Ashley

No Subject.

There really isn't a point to this blog I'm going to write, i just feel that i haven't been blogging enough lately so this is kind of my chance to catch up...well if that's what you can call it.
Schools been okay lately. Nothing spectacular going on, its the same old crap everyday, but hey i can't complain. Went to San Gennaro this weekend. It was alright, minus a couple things, oh and Gloria getting pink eye :/ sorrry about that again. I still feel partly guilty. For some reason whenever i hear about pink eye it reminds me of "Knocked Up" hahahaa. Kind of gross, but funnny. Sort of like how Michael and I always watch the Real World, and i remember back on Season 15 of the Real World which was Real World: Philadelphia, that annoying biotch Melanie got Scabies, and i remember Michael and I would always say that the other had scabies, i don't know why. It was just funny. Actually, i think i still do say it to him. haha I'm so immature sometimes. wooow well this blogs not very good, but hey at least i actually wrote something.

Until lattterr , Trenna

Upset

     Yesterday, my eyes opened and so did my heart. Finding out some things that have been going on for 5 years just made me sick. How could someone so easily do something so immoral? I just don't understand the people in my family. The last thing that is said, "I'm sorry I fucked up your life. I know you hate me, but I don't even care." The last fucking thing, not even "I love you and I am so sorry." No he had to be a douche and do that. How could he do that? How can a person be so cruel? 

     Then my mom tries to tell me that I need to talk to him. I told her today that I had nothing to say to him and that I could care less if he was in my life or not. Yet, the truth is, I am just so hurt, I don't want him to leave. Maybe it will be for the best, maybe not? Maybe he will keep doing what he is doing. Until then, he'll just be a man walking around my house and eating me and my moms food, and watching our TV. No words, just sitting there like a week old vegetable; calm and nonchalant. 

     My heart and mind hurt and I can't stand it.

-Ashley

in broadcast;

Lately I've been thinking about this past year. There has been alot of tears, smiles, laughs, and definitely alot of fast food along the way :)
I've come to realize that some of the people that i've once known aren't the same people i remember them long ago. Some change for the good, some changed for the bad, and others, well they stayed the same way. But change isn't such a bad thing, i mean it's hard at first but you meet many people through your journey, some who are like the previous people you once (or at least you thought you knew) and some who will always be in your heart.

♥
gloria;;

Opinionated

So today i realized that i'm very opinionated, and i can't tell if thats a bad thing or not. It just really struck me today when i was having a conversation with Ashley in english and the people next to us didn't agree with our views on Gay Marriage. Me and Ashley are all for it, and the other people were against it, and it really made me and Ashley mad. I mean i've always told myself that everyone has a right to their own opinion and i try not to let it bother me, but today it just really ticked me off. I'm not going to go on a whole rant about why i think Gay Marriage should be legal and how everyone that thinks differently is stupid, BUT i just wish that people would see things differenty, especially since were in 2009, not 1950something. I just had to get this out before it bothered me even more. But on a good note, this weekend should be fun :)


-Trenna

Disneyland

     Tomorrow, my family and I are going to Disneyland. I believe this is my fathers way of saying sorry without words. For some reason I feel like he is trying to buy my love back by giving me things. For example, for Christmas he bought me a 700$ computer, gave me 100$ just because, and then told me that we where going to Disneyland to try and make our family relationship better. I find it all a bunch of bull shit, but my mom insists that he's trying to be genuine. 

     The sad thing is, is that me and my father don't talk. Yes we will have that small talk but he never, and I mean never try's to just ask me how I am. Its always like this, "Oh, hi Ash.", me "Hey dad, how was work?" him "Fine." thats pretty much it. It really hurts, but makes me angry more than anything. Sometimes I wish he would just tell me that he's so sorry and that he's trying to fix things. Although I would have to disagree, because you can't fix the past. I still haven't forgiven him nor forgot all of the things he has put me and my mom through. Hopefully this trip will show him that.

-Ashley

10 years later

About a week ago I was at prom and I received a text from my elementary school best friend, Jasmine* inviting me to her baby shower & also informing me that she was 8 months pregnant. I never thought that the tall, slim, straight A student that i've known since 1st grade, would now be expecting a little baby girl. But I guess it just goes to show you can't expect the people you knew long ago to stay the same forever. Seeing Jasmine will be interesting tomorrow.


♥,
gloria


* name has been changed.

Confused

I am a little; no very, perturbed with my so called "best friend" at the moment. She always jumps to conclusions about how I am thinking or about something I am going to do. The fact that she makes excuse after excuse about not wanting to come here hurts. "Oh I'll just go stay with _____, she actually wants me here. Besides, I don't want to get between you and Shane this summer." Fuck man, that really made me angry. My best friend who I haven't seen for a year 1/2 thinks that I wouldn't make time for her when she's here? That really tickled me, almost to the point where I could just bitch at her. Oh but guess what I did. My statement back, "Fine don't fucking come!" 

I know I  know, I need to be the bigger person, but I can't help it when something needs to be said.

So I guess she's not coming?

-Confused and sad

Ashley

Get with the times.

So yesterday I was texting Michael, and we were on the subject of his stepmom and how closeminded she is. I told Michael that she needs to get with the times because people are changing and being ignorant and close minded isnt as common as you might think now a days.
This then came to the subject that even my uncle isn't as closeminded as he used to be.
So let me just fill you in, my uncle hates basically everyone. He's not really a people person. He doesn't like just about every other race besides white, being black is the exception though, he doesnt relaly have a problem, with them, but still. He makes rude comments about other races all the time and its like it doesn't matter to him, but lately my uncle's been changing, and im really happy. He's been being a lot nicer to everyone and i havent heard him say a racist comment in a while. Oh and to top it off, he's reconnected to his old friend, who turns out to be GAY now. Yes, Gay, and thats really funny seeing as my uncle hates gay people but him and this guy are like BFF's now, always talking and hanging out, and drinking beer.
I mean, my uncles always been tolerant of gay people, like my moms gay friends, or whenever michael was mentioned or when he was over, but now i think my uncle has finally learned not to care, and to just let people live how they want to live, and i must say i'm proud.

Idk. I'm just saying that if my uncle can open up his mind, there is hope for anyone else too open up theirs also.


-Trenna

*I'll try to write more often since i've forgotten for the past 2 weeks besides now.

weird....

Person: "Are you scared?"

Me: "Scared of what?"

Person: "To die?"

Me: "Yes I am scared, aren't you?"

Person: "No not really... why are you scared?"

Me: "I'm not ready to die. I haven't made an impact on anything yet. Maybe when I feel like I've accomplished something in my life, I wont be scared...."

Person: "Oh alright..."

This was probably the strangest conversation I've ever had. Dying is actually one of my biggest fears. Right before I go to bed every night I think about different things in my life or things that may have happened that certain day. For some reason, I always end up thinking about dying and it scares the shit out of me. But the fact that this person asked me that, scared me. Maybe some things wrong with that person. God I feel like a terrible friend. I should probably help them, but yet I have so many other things to worry about in my own life right now. 

ahhh.

-Ashley

Friday Night Chill

Ashley just burped, and now the room smells of chinese food and seafood, thanks to Gloria's Panda Express, and Ashley's lobster pasta.

Anywaaaays, from the past exsperiences we've had, it was surprising for HA to be around today. I don't know whether you can classify as a bad surprise, or good. You can choose that one for yourself.

On a sad note though, CA was missing today, ... how sad :(

You know what's been bothering us lately.......EFFING TWITTER!

Who cares what everyone is doing every frickin second of the day?!

Really? it's ridiculous, who really needs to know every second of your life.

like "Ohh I'm now peeing at this very second"

NOBODY CARES.

oh and is it just us, or is this some new way for pedophiles and stalkers to reach a new all time high? i mean really? this is basically a free card for them to go and pick out anyone they like and find out exactly what their doing at any time.

And another thing. Since when does AA have a prom date? woow. moving on up i see.

Oh but if you're reading this, Gloria still needs a date? Get at that;; ya digg?

Until then,

TAGteam

michael phelpssss :)

I'm always wishing for something, but probably the "important" wish is to learn how to not drown in a swimming pool. shit i'm probably the only person that doesn't know how to. but yet again alot of people don't know how to do other stuff, like trenna didn't know how to ride a bike until freshmen year, or even how ashley can't pass her permit test (but it's okay ash, you'll be my arm candy when i have wheels :)

-gloriaaaa.

Same old. Same old.

I feel as if i'm not doing the blog any justice. I mean i've only written in it once and in all honestly i just remembered that we even had a blog.

Oh God i wish i was better at remembering to write.
I cant even begin to tell you how many time i've tried to keep a diary since i was in first grade and me and my then bff Brooke thought how it would be a great idea to keep track of our lives. Lets just say its alot. But from now on, i'm really going to try to write in this more often.

So what's on my mind today..lately i've been thinking about life and adventures.
This time last year (ehh maybe even a yeah and a half ago) i was happy just hanging out with my friends and going to the movies, blah blah. But now i can't stand being anywhere with my friends, unless its something random that we just decided to do last minute. The movies just don't do it for me anymore.
I'm not a "party-girl", well in my eyes i'm not, but i do like to have fun. And not in the sense of doing drugs to have fun either. I really don't think i need them, i mean if you've been around me when were out, im sure you'll agree that if any substance was added to my personality, then i'd be over the top, and i'd probably start to even annoy myself.

Basically what im trying to say is, from now on i'm not settling for just movies or the norm. I'm going out and living life with all intention to have fun and to make plans on the spot and just to do whatever i feel like at that moment.

Trenna.

life

Today it has finally hit me that my parents are divorced. I hurt so bad inside that the smallest thing made me cry. No I'm not pmsing, but this one small incident made my big incident triple in size and I just broke down. I felt so stupid, I never cry at school, nor did I ever want to.
I don't think its fair that someone my age should feel like they don't matter to anyone. I mean fighting over who gets the car and the days I go to my dads house right in front of me hurts. I just wish my mom would just kick him out and tell him to leave. But she loves him so much that she can't. Yet, she doesn't understand how I feel, because I feel like I have to be strong for the both of us.

ashley

HOME

I am finally back from State! It was a lot of fun and I loved meeting all of the other student councils in Nevada. I think what really got to me was the motivational speakers. The one that really wanted to make me cry was the artist. He was talking about how he had struggles in his life and just wanted to paint/graffiti. In a way I could relate to him. My parents have now been divorced for 2 months and it kills me. It feels like the only way I can get my mind off of that fact is to take Photographs. Its a passion I have and I know it will be my career in the future. But the fact that he had something to fall back onto when he was on the streets, just made me realize that I had life good and I do take so many things for granted. 

On a good note, spring break is next week and my mom told me she was going to buy tickets to go see LOVE. I've been dyeing to see it with her. 

Also, I am so truly excited to see everyone at school tomorrow! It feels like I've been gone for ever! I also feel like I made some really good friends on this trip. 

Yay

BYE

-Ashley

this blog probably sounds gaaaay;

The thing I hate about mornings is I never know what's gonna happen later in the day. I never thought when I was brushing my teeth before I left the house to go shopping, I was later going to cry in an I-IN-OUT drive thru. The tears all started when I was learning how to parallel park, and my genius mom thought using giant rocks would be a smart idea to mark the cars where I had to somehow fit her car in-between. Probably after my 5th sad attempt of parking, my mom yelled at me to start again which didn't help me out because I was already pissed off, and than one of big rocks got caught under the car. Later we realized that cause of that rock, something under the car is now bent. Now your probably saying why would I cry about that if it was clearly my mom's fault? Well you'd be mad too if this was your second time you had bad luck with cars (the first time was in December, where the car wouldn't start when I tried to start the engine, even though the mechanic says it wasn't my fault).
-glo

ash (:

awww i'm going to miss you two !!!

and of course trenna too :D

Woo! (sarcastic)

Okay so this is my first blog, and I honestly believe I won't remember to write in this all the time, so we'll see for just how long I can keep this up.



Well today was an interesting day i guess.

This morning I woke up and got ready for school and i was waiting for Gloria to pick me up, and afer about 30 min of waiting and texting and calling i finally just asked my mom to take me to school. Then as my moms getting ready to take me, Gloria finally calls back and says she didnt know she had to take me today and she felt bad. But whateverr it's alright. I definitely can live with being 20 min. late to school :)



So then school was allright, with the minor exceptions of lunch, where i said things i shouldn't have ( Sorry Jocelyn :/) and then in StuCo, where as usual there was arguing, but what else is new? Theres always something going on in that class, whether it be drama or something else.

Yeahhh and the rest of the day didnt really matter because it was to boring to count really.



So now im at home deciding what to pack for my trip tomorrow. If you don't know, Ashley and Myself are going to Reno! WOOO! nott. The only reason im excited for this trip is t get out of vegas. Other than that its whatever. But the bus ride and hotel should be pretty okay :)





welllll i'll write more laterrrr, because i need to get on the phone.

(:

TRENNA&GLORIA

The first post! So I seriously can't stand FA! She just gets on my nerves so much! Gah and state tomorrow, I really don't feel like going, MA better not talk to me...... Anywayssssss. I'm going to miss you glofish!