Disneyland

     Tomorrow, my family and I are going to Disneyland. I believe this is my fathers way of saying sorry without words. For some reason I feel like he is trying to buy my love back by giving me things. For example, for Christmas he bought me a 700$ computer, gave me 100$ just because, and then told me that we where going to Disneyland to try and make our family relationship better. I find it all a bunch of bull shit, but my mom insists that he's trying to be genuine. 

     The sad thing is, is that me and my father don't talk. Yes we will have that small talk but he never, and I mean never try's to just ask me how I am. Its always like this, "Oh, hi Ash.", me "Hey dad, how was work?" him "Fine." thats pretty much it. It really hurts, but makes me angry more than anything. Sometimes I wish he would just tell me that he's so sorry and that he's trying to fix things. Although I would have to disagree, because you can't fix the past. I still haven't forgiven him nor forgot all of the things he has put me and my mom through. Hopefully this trip will show him that.

-Ashley