Disneyland

     Tomorrow, my family and I are going to Disneyland. I believe this is my fathers way of saying sorry without words. For some reason I feel like he is trying to buy my love back by giving me things. For example, for Christmas he bought me a 700$ computer, gave me 100$ just because, and then told me that we where going to Disneyland to try and make our family relationship better. I find it all a bunch of bull shit, but my mom insists that he's trying to be genuine. 

     The sad thing is, is that me and my father don't talk. Yes we will have that small talk but he never, and I mean never try's to just ask me how I am. Its always like this, "Oh, hi Ash.", me "Hey dad, how was work?" him "Fine." thats pretty much it. It really hurts, but makes me angry more than anything. Sometimes I wish he would just tell me that he's so sorry and that he's trying to fix things. Although I would have to disagree, because you can't fix the past. I still haven't forgiven him nor forgot all of the things he has put me and my mom through. Hopefully this trip will show him that.

-Ashley

10 years later

About a week ago I was at prom and I received a text from my elementary school best friend, Jasmine* inviting me to her baby shower & also informing me that she was 8 months pregnant. I never thought that the tall, slim, straight A student that i've known since 1st grade, would now be expecting a little baby girl. But I guess it just goes to show you can't expect the people you knew long ago to stay the same forever. Seeing Jasmine will be interesting tomorrow.


♥,
gloria


* name has been changed.

Confused

I am a little; no very, perturbed with my so called "best friend" at the moment. She always jumps to conclusions about how I am thinking or about something I am going to do. The fact that she makes excuse after excuse about not wanting to come here hurts. "Oh I'll just go stay with _____, she actually wants me here. Besides, I don't want to get between you and Shane this summer." Fuck man, that really made me angry. My best friend who I haven't seen for a year 1/2 thinks that I wouldn't make time for her when she's here? That really tickled me, almost to the point where I could just bitch at her. Oh but guess what I did. My statement back, "Fine don't fucking come!" 

I know I  know, I need to be the bigger person, but I can't help it when something needs to be said.

So I guess she's not coming?

-Confused and sad

Ashley

Get with the times.

So yesterday I was texting Michael, and we were on the subject of his stepmom and how closeminded she is. I told Michael that she needs to get with the times because people are changing and being ignorant and close minded isnt as common as you might think now a days.
This then came to the subject that even my uncle isn't as closeminded as he used to be.
So let me just fill you in, my uncle hates basically everyone. He's not really a people person. He doesn't like just about every other race besides white, being black is the exception though, he doesnt relaly have a problem, with them, but still. He makes rude comments about other races all the time and its like it doesn't matter to him, but lately my uncle's been changing, and im really happy. He's been being a lot nicer to everyone and i havent heard him say a racist comment in a while. Oh and to top it off, he's reconnected to his old friend, who turns out to be GAY now. Yes, Gay, and thats really funny seeing as my uncle hates gay people but him and this guy are like BFF's now, always talking and hanging out, and drinking beer.
I mean, my uncles always been tolerant of gay people, like my moms gay friends, or whenever michael was mentioned or when he was over, but now i think my uncle has finally learned not to care, and to just let people live how they want to live, and i must say i'm proud.

Idk. I'm just saying that if my uncle can open up his mind, there is hope for anyone else too open up theirs also.


-Trenna

*I'll try to write more often since i've forgotten for the past 2 weeks besides now.

weird....

Person: "Are you scared?"

Me: "Scared of what?"

Person: "To die?"

Me: "Yes I am scared, aren't you?"

Person: "No not really... why are you scared?"

Me: "I'm not ready to die. I haven't made an impact on anything yet. Maybe when I feel like I've accomplished something in my life, I wont be scared...."

Person: "Oh alright..."

This was probably the strangest conversation I've ever had. Dying is actually one of my biggest fears. Right before I go to bed every night I think about different things in my life or things that may have happened that certain day. For some reason, I always end up thinking about dying and it scares the shit out of me. But the fact that this person asked me that, scared me. Maybe some things wrong with that person. God I feel like a terrible friend. I should probably help them, but yet I have so many other things to worry about in my own life right now. 

ahhh.

-Ashley

Friday Night Chill

Ashley just burped, and now the room smells of chinese food and seafood, thanks to Gloria's Panda Express, and Ashley's lobster pasta.

Anywaaaays, from the past exsperiences we've had, it was surprising for HA to be around today. I don't know whether you can classify as a bad surprise, or good. You can choose that one for yourself.

On a sad note though, CA was missing today, ... how sad :(

You know what's been bothering us lately.......EFFING TWITTER!

Who cares what everyone is doing every frickin second of the day?!

Really? it's ridiculous, who really needs to know every second of your life.

like "Ohh I'm now peeing at this very second"

NOBODY CARES.

oh and is it just us, or is this some new way for pedophiles and stalkers to reach a new all time high? i mean really? this is basically a free card for them to go and pick out anyone they like and find out exactly what their doing at any time.

And another thing. Since when does AA have a prom date? woow. moving on up i see.

Oh but if you're reading this, Gloria still needs a date? Get at that;; ya digg?

Until then,

TAGteam

michael phelpssss :)

I'm always wishing for something, but probably the "important" wish is to learn how to not drown in a swimming pool. shit i'm probably the only person that doesn't know how to. but yet again alot of people don't know how to do other stuff, like trenna didn't know how to ride a bike until freshmen year, or even how ashley can't pass her permit test (but it's okay ash, you'll be my arm candy when i have wheels :)

-gloriaaaa.

Same old. Same old.

I feel as if i'm not doing the blog any justice. I mean i've only written in it once and in all honestly i just remembered that we even had a blog.

Oh God i wish i was better at remembering to write.
I cant even begin to tell you how many time i've tried to keep a diary since i was in first grade and me and my then bff Brooke thought how it would be a great idea to keep track of our lives. Lets just say its alot. But from now on, i'm really going to try to write in this more often.

So what's on my mind today..lately i've been thinking about life and adventures.
This time last year (ehh maybe even a yeah and a half ago) i was happy just hanging out with my friends and going to the movies, blah blah. But now i can't stand being anywhere with my friends, unless its something random that we just decided to do last minute. The movies just don't do it for me anymore.
I'm not a "party-girl", well in my eyes i'm not, but i do like to have fun. And not in the sense of doing drugs to have fun either. I really don't think i need them, i mean if you've been around me when were out, im sure you'll agree that if any substance was added to my personality, then i'd be over the top, and i'd probably start to even annoy myself.

Basically what im trying to say is, from now on i'm not settling for just movies or the norm. I'm going out and living life with all intention to have fun and to make plans on the spot and just to do whatever i feel like at that moment.

Trenna.

life

Today it has finally hit me that my parents are divorced. I hurt so bad inside that the smallest thing made me cry. No I'm not pmsing, but this one small incident made my big incident triple in size and I just broke down. I felt so stupid, I never cry at school, nor did I ever want to.
I don't think its fair that someone my age should feel like they don't matter to anyone. I mean fighting over who gets the car and the days I go to my dads house right in front of me hurts. I just wish my mom would just kick him out and tell him to leave. But she loves him so much that she can't. Yet, she doesn't understand how I feel, because I feel like I have to be strong for the both of us.

ashley